Dreaming

I think i got something to say. UUGHHHH!  I just want to scream, but i won't. I can't wait till i graduate high school. Till i go to college I'm going to go somewhere far away. Away from everyone here. Every one i know i want to start out new somewhere else. I don't want to relay on anyone but myself until there is that one person  that can always be there for me that always knows what to say and that truly understands me it can be anyone even just a friend. WHO AM I KIDDING!?  That's never going to happen. So ima keep on DREAMING.

I have nothing good to say. Ill tell you when there's something interesting.

Nothing ever changes. and that's history.

Im going to give all my Secrets away.

Don't worry about making me feel bad, you hit that perfectly. But i guess i deserve it , I cant be trusted. You know when you do something. But your not sure if its the right thing to do and then you wish you would have thought about it twice yea this is one of those moments.


Secrets-One Republic

Cause when with you I have fun.

Today was Fun did i mention how much i love my Best friend Omaris <3 shes like the best, i had fun with her today. the time kept a lot of things off my mind. Besides the fact that i had to pee but I LOVE HER!    (I hope you read this.)

Goodnight.

I did what i had to do.

I did it i finally did it. And I'm not sure if i regret it.
Oh well too late now. Just hope everything turns out okay.
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^^Totally Agree^^

I'm such a girl aren't I. I don't know what to say anymore. I feel really stupid when i talk and yet here i am talking nonsense. Its all Lovely Nonsense.

 

It sucks to be a Burden.

If only you knew.

List of Places I Want to Go Before I Die

1. Italy(Venice, Rome, Sicily etc)
2. Spain (Barcelona)
3. Puerto Rico
4. England
5. Canada
6. Greece
7. Alaska
8. Australia
9. Washington
10. California
11. Oregon
12. Hawaii
13. France
14. Nevada
15. Texas
16. Colombia
17. Fiji
18. Louisiana

This F***ing weather!

I Hate this coldness! BRING SUMMER BACK! best time of the year even though i love seeing the snow cause its so beautiful. The summer is so great the Beach,Pool,Sun and VACATION. 

 
Bring it all back. Now its fall cold ass fall!  That means Ugly big coats, School,Cold and did i mention SCHOOL!


UGH WINTER!

Short Classic Black Uggs,

These are driving me crazy!!! I want them, so i go order them finally. So guess what? Its in back order till January 3 -___-

I wish he was my boyfriend.

I wish he was my boyfriend

I wish he was my boyfriend

I'd love him to the very end

But instead he's just a friend

I wish he was my boyfriend

There's nothing worse than 

sitting all alone at home

And waiting waiting waiting 

waiting by the phone

I hope that he's at home

Waiting by his phone

I wonder if he knows

That I want him

I wish he was my boyfriend

I wish he was my boyfriend

I'd love him to the very end but instead he's just a friend

I wish he was my boyfriend

The other girl is not like me

She's prettier and skinnier

She has a college degree

I dropped out when I was seventeen

If only I could get her out of the picture

Then he would know how much I want him

One day I'll make him mine

And we'll be together all the time

We'll sit and watch the sun rise

And gaze into each others eyes

And know that he knows

I know that he knows

That he wants to be my boyfriend

Boyfriend

Boyfriend

I'd love him to the very end

But instead he's just a friend

I wish he was my boyfriend

I wish he was my boyfriend

I'd love him to the very end

But instead he's just a friend

I wish he was my boyfriend 

<3 If  only he knew how true this was.

Its so confusing my feeling are all over the place. I don't know what i want all day i think about you how much i miss you, how much i want to see you,  how i want to talk to you. And i cant understand why i cant get over you like wtf does it mean. And i know its not fair to you that i feel this way. I feel so guilty cause i have him and he loves me so much and i don't want to be with him forever I'm too young to think about the future and that's what were doing hes not even here which sucks so much and i don't know what to do. I want to move on be with other people. But I'm stuck.

Camera Shy! Me? Noo.

I really need to start saving my money. I clearly have a spending problem. I wanna buy almost everything i see and i do till I'm broke and don't have any money, so now I'm going to make myself a spending list. Whatever i want the most goes on the top and whatever is worthless and i have no reason for buying goes at the bottom. 

 

#1 Camera - I really need one   

#3743754382965954750 Clothes - I have to much clothes! 

I really want a job, but I'm only 16 and nobody hires a 16 year old they suck! I need more money since i spend so much. I need suggestions.

X-rays, ultrasounds, catscans oh my

Today was Horrible.


I should of never complained about my back hurting,cause then i get stuck with having to get an x-ray and a ultra sound. Yea i realized i don't like it to much. They made me drink 6 cups of water. @.@ and also kept me waiting two hours.And the ultrasound lady was all pissy. At least i got to miss school.


So yea i had a horrible experience.


So Christmas is almost here... i feel like i should be happy about that.
I was Uber excited to put up my Christmas tree but then i realize this Christmas is going to be the same as every other one. BORING Every year i hope we do something new but we don't so i get upset for getting my hopes up.

And then there's new year. When it comes to think of it this year has been a pretty awesome year. Until high school. DAME HIGH SCHOOL! It ruins everything. I'm hoping 2011 is way better.



Currently Listening to: A year with out rain.- Selena Gomez
Like a G6- Far east movement >;O weird i know

 But i got the best Christmas present ever.

Don't you wonder?

Haven't you ever wondered why the grass is green or why the sky is blue?
Well I wonder..  How come Love is such a lousy word? Why do we harm instead of help? When do you know What you want? Who believes in me? Where will i be tomorrow?




and what the heck are blogs for again? 
oh yea to say whats on your mind.
or my current interest.


Honestly in my mind are hard decisions i don't want to make.
I'm currently interested in nobody but myself.
That's kinda harsh but true Ive learned in the last couple of months while my transition from middle school to high school that i cant depend on anyone but myself. Sure there's going to be your best friends who help you out in some situations but you cant relay to much. What happens when there not there? You cant relay on a Guy. Those come and go. And there not sure what they want. Just like yourself.


Recently i cant tolerate selfishness. The world doesn't revolve around anybody so stop trying, its going to take you forever.


I'm currently got really interested in http://www.polyvore.com/ 
:3 That happens when you have no life.  -__-

It extremely upsets me being ignored. "The whole world hates me." 

THE END