My Life is Nonsense

How does a good fucking day turn into shit in one second? I hate how people cant just be honest. I rather nobody tell me anything and be clueless about everything in the whole wide world. Things get spread around so easily one person knows something then the next then the next it wont stop. I hate when people are mad at me and won't just tell me to my face or to me instead tell someone else who eventually is going to tell me what is the point its all dumb DUMB your all dumb. I honestly tell Nelson my whole life and every word i hear everything i see everything because he's the only one who listens.

Hmmm... Today was such a crappy day, im in one of those moods were you just don't want to be bothered and every little thing ticks you off. Yeah yeah no bueno. Then the only person I wanted to talk to all day barely talked to me. I hate feeling like im not important anymore even after being told a million times that I am, sometimes its just really hard to believe. So my day consisted with going to the dermatologist , getting blood taken out of me ( like i need less blood with my anemia) and going home playing citiville  LAME! and caking on makeup and taking pictures. That was the best part f my day taking pictures of myself. That sounds conceited but it kept me from dying of boredom. Anyway yeah so this week hasn't completely sucked but its starting to..... it only Wednesday. Can't fucking wait. Florida here i come.... in a few months. :\

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Absolutely positive.  I want agree and keep going on with my life but there's something in the back of my mind telling me to wait but you know what I'm not going to listen cause its too late.

Paramore

Love them.....

ooh ooh ooh lalala..

If I could write you a song,
and make you fall in love,
I would already have you up under my arm.
I used to pull all my tricks,
I hope that you like this.
but you probably won't,
you think you're cooler than me.

Lalalala... ♪♫♥♪♫♥

 

I can't get enough.

Sadly your my drug and I can't get enough and honestly I don't want to, no rehab for me. Your totally worth it even though you don't believe me. I hope you learn to trust me not to break your heart that would mean the world to me. We live and we learn...
I don't want to push you away but I need to know how you work in order to understand you. I need a manual. Let me know where I can find it then maybe we can move forward with this. I'd really really like that. I really really like you.

Dreaming of you.

"Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too"



 
Every time you change your mind my whole world turns upside down.And i don't care because i think your worth it. But it can also be the worse mistake in my life. But i cant stop thinking about you.

Reality

Love is like a rubber band, we keep pulling, someone lets go and it hurts the one who held on ♥ So True. 

Who cares?

I hope you get buried in the snow and nobody finds you till your dead. That's kinda mean isn't it. To bad I don't mean it at all just wish I can physically hurt you so you know how you've hurt me.

Insanity

Are you purposely messing with my mind? What did i do to deserve this? Is it all a fucking game? Did you know it hurt me every time you change your mind? Did you ever realized I'm  here waiting for your rejection once again? Do you understand how i feel? Will you ever see that? Please let me know.


Thanks for the insanity.

Disappointment doesn't even come close.

You turned out exactly how i didn't want you to be.

People change for all the wrong reason.

And your too oblivious to understand this now but when

you do i hope you see where I'm coming from.

And its only because i love you.

Disappointment doesn't even come close to it. 

I'd wish you'd understand how i feel about this.

If only you would get what I'm trying to say.

But i knw you believe that it was the right choice.

I hope it doesn't bite you in the ass later.